An Erractic Me,with an erractic write-up!!!

My premotions are not in sync with my goals..my goals are not in sync with my aim..my aim is not in sync with my dreams and my dreams...my dreams are all that i have .... all that i would be...but then they too are not in sync with what i want to be!!.....

I dont know what am I wrting right now.May be I am totally out of my mind.May be I am too overwhelmed by watching HEROES.May be I am paranoid.May be I am simply being erratic or at last its just that I am acting weird to catch attention.May be its all of these in a single serve.But trust me,as my fingers strike the keys on my keypad,I dont have any second thought in my mind except the current stream glutting through my nerves.

Athough,I was struck deeply with the concept of the show Heroes.I have just started watching it and somehow,I feel its not just any other superhero stuff.I pondered over the fact that eveyone of us is special.I am not talking of the super powers and the un-natural stuff and the paranormal shit.

You need to be serious before you read further because only and only if you are mad enough by now(just like me)will you be able to understand my words which are the notations of my inner sense.First of all,I would like to clarify that I am a true science believer and my questions are answered only when they are supported by rationale and logic.But,at the very same time I am a human surrounded by so many different minds,perceptions,theories that sometimes its hard to remain a scientific bloke.Someday or the other you have to look up and tell yourself,"I dont know what rubbish is being talked about by Einstein and what exactly is Mr.Hawking trying to do with his life?"

All I am saying is,that why is there always a quest for more knowledge?Why are we trying so hard to progress?Why is it that human mind always ends up conjouring something so extra-ordinary that it defies the present and defines the future?Why do people want to waste their life understanding the complexities and not enjoy the superficial greatness of nature?Why do we need to declare the supremacy of our race and not co-exist at the same level with the other species?And finally,WHY AM I ASKING THESE IDIOTIC QUESTIONS?

After much pondering,I had to submit to the DESTINY THEORY which is the most prevelant and easiest to understand, if you just develop your faith.Its ironical when I say that God Himself has designed it all this way.Its all pre-planned.Those Aristotles and Newtons who think they revolutionised the world by giving scientific explainations for the celestial as well as earthly phenomenon were all apostles of knowledge send by God Himself.He is a great comedian.He finds mirth in his own mockery.Not many are capable of such acts.If you have ever read about Confucius,he was but amazed when the Angel told him that there was a soul much diviner than his that God would personally escort back to Heaven.He was but amazed to find that the soul was of a clown who made others laugh and made their lives happier.

Have you ever wondered how He would have “LOLmaxed”(yeah,that’s what I call progressive english) everytime the atheist society condemned Him.Everytime some scientist tries to define a practical occurrence in terms of the materialistic theories which sooner or later gets rejected.How,God,the spectator of His own miracle be amused when He sees His puppets so entangled among themselves that they totally forget about the One whos holding their strings.Its His greatness that He humours the silly proclaimations of victory and defeat, gain and loss, richness and poverty,intelligence and dumbness while He knows that’s its all a web spun by his majestically skilled hands.

All this and more,just to see His children learn and grow and feel good about their existence.He created Ego,Anger ,Pain,Sorrow ,Joy etc..etc to spice up His melodramatic creation.He sits down and watches His own Directorial in 3-D and and can create twists and turns in the ongoing story at his own will.At times He feels that He should send in some actor who could beat the last best performance and be the best.Thats when He sends in people like Michelangelo, Picasso, Aryabhatta, Chanakya, Ashoka, Akbar, Galilieo, Newton, Ramanujam, Einstein etc,..etc…,all masters of their field and they take the world by storm leaving everyone in their awe.That raises the bar of the drama which we so proudly term as DEVELOPMENT or PROGRESS in our lame language.Just imagine Him sitting at the helm,like the Architect of the MATRIX SERIES.Yes,it does sends chills down my spine too.

The thing with this article is that I only wanted to reterieate what has been said a zillion times.In the twisted words of “Metallica”-
“Master of puppets
‘HE’s pulling your strings
Twisting your mind and smashing your dreams!!

When I started writing this,I was very perplexed and frustrated.May be I wrote this to soothe myself but then its always worthy sharing anything and everything that comes to mind.I am still amazed how my fingers rolled so involuntarily.Thats His will I guess.Thiis doesn’t mean that I have become some spiritual leader or I am deep into religion but then sometimes its fun to poke Him.Let Him know that we do remember Him.Let him know that we know that we are being controlled by Him.All that we have to do is to perform actions that make not only us but others happy.

(P.S.-I don’t know what have I written.I really have no idea where this came from.I was only on FB,with my routine stuff and suddenly ,at around 3:30 in the morning I started typing for this.So,I shall apologise if theres any offensive content.)