THE CHANGES THAT I HAVE MADE!!!!!

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I tried to be perfect,

But nothing was worth it,

I don’t believe it makes me real.

I thought it’d be easy,

But no one believes me,

I meant all the things I said.

The above lines are taken from an awesome song called...PIECES by SUM 41.

I am not as good a friend as you expect me to be....

or...

May be I am too good to be a friend.I am fed up of being taken for granted.

Whatever the case may be, I have finally decided that I can no longer mold myself as per the mood swings of the ones I love and admire.I have been liberal enough to use SORRY and PLEASE.But now,I shall save it for my future use.

I the wake of protecting the EGOS of my beloved ones, somewhere I have lost my own.I am giving up on this constant feeling of irritation that has persisted too long. It indeed is a BAD-BAD world. Either the person you care for doesnt even give a shit or if one does reciprocate, the expectations in return are too high to be met.

Finally,I am setting myself free from all the bondage that are thrust upon us in this worldly affair of mutual existence.Selfishness,as you may call it,shall overpower me soon and i shall not be feeling guilty for that.That's because its a BAD-BAD world out there.

Where is I, ME and MYSELF in my life?It has always been YOU, YOURS, THEM, THEIRS. Adjustments and adaptations has totally faded my original identity. Sometimes I wonder to myself, what would have been my opinion? I have spent too much time thinking what others may like.I have been too mindful to think how others would react?And when I somehow fail to comprehend to their likings, I have to beg for companionship and ask them not to go, as I promise to make up for the wrong.But now,NO MORE.

Its not that I am closing myself up and shutting all the doors of self improvement. But then, I am not going to be judged by people anymore.No, not at all.You have a problem with me, come and say it on my face.If i find myself wrong,I shall not hesitate even a bit to apologize and will definitely try to make up for it.But,I wont be a victim of low esteem anymore.Thats because its a BAD-BAD world and you end up getting weaker everytime to try to pamper someone too much.

The one you try to WOO too much ultimately SHOOS you off.I have become scared of people around me.I lately realised that the my worst nightmare is lonliness and finally I shall endeavour to befriend it ASAP.

There was this friend of mine who used to say that FRIENDS COME AND GO.....but I used to criticize her by saying they COME AND STAY......

WE BOTH WERE WRONG!!!!

The actual thing is...

THEY COME AND GO......BUT ONLY SOME STAY...!!!

And those who stay might not be your BEST FRIENDS but then all that mattered was that THEY STAYED!!!

So,I basically remain the same SANS the fear of being alone....I am not alone....I can never be alone....

But still, its good if you can manage with NEW ME with all the new CHANGES THAT I HAVE MADE!!!!